Tuesday, January 29, 2013


I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in these shoes.


I saw this post and felt like I can really relate to it today.  I don't want to forever walk in these shoes.  I feel so tired and we have barely begun fighting.  I HATE cancer!  I hate what it is doing to Alex and the whole family.  I hate that Alex is missing out on simple fun things that he would normally be doing.  I want so badly for it to just go away and have everything back to normal again.  

1 comment:

  1. Oh how I wish you didn't have to wear these shoes! And I can't think of a tougher pair of shoes than this one. No child should have to go through this, and no mom should have to stand by and watch and ache for that child. But you are an amazing mom and are taking such good care of Alex and the family. We love you. We support you. We want Alex to WIN!

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